Hey, homies! I had the idea for this post pretty early last week and did not create the time to sit down to type. After the previous post, I got frustrated that I wasn’t showing different facets of myself. I felt that people for most of my life only perceived me one way. Then in college, I finally felt safe to explore the light-hearted side with friends.
The funny part about myself is revealing my goofy side is more vulnerable to me than talking about inner child work. Not to say that I don’t get in my head about talking about my past or insecurities but it’s more comfortable for me in public. I let myself get pigeoned to being the “nice girl” and held onto that identity. When in reality, I would go home, dance in my room, be playful, and know that there is more to me.
I like making jokes and being playful with people. All in all, I don’t like being serious all the time. My goal this year has been to work on stepping into my vibrant, light-hearted, laughs-at-herself, goofy, self. That is why I wanted to tell you some fun things that happened to me last week and also throw in a few from this week:
My go to release when experiencing anxiety is throwing on music and having what I call dance parties. Recently I have been putting my Beats headphones on.
I studied music business in college and love YouTube. That is why I watch reaction videos to albums. Last week I watched a reaction to the Billie Eilish album and the video made me interested in listening to it.
My mom and I went to a farmer’s market and I bought myself flowers. They are pink peonies and trying to hold on a week later.
I got a signed Elin Hilderbrand book. Last year was the first time I heard about her books and started reading. It’s funny that this is her last Nantucket-based book and my parents are ending their New England era.
Last week I focused on having more intentional mornings to write in my journal. Sometimes having early mornings makes it hard to have the alertness or time to write. This week I haven’t made it a priority but I need to.
On Tuesday I registered for classes for grad school in August. Which is wild to see written out but it was the easiest process of signing up. My undergraduate process was super stressful, so I’m glad that this was a breeze in comparison.
I started this newsletter wanting to have more fun on this platform and have a childlike wonder. At the same time, it’s easy to go back to what you are used to. So I want to remind myself to add random tidbits of the week that aren’t my usual content.
I thought I would bring back a little encouragement for this week in audio format:
This picture was taken at my parent’s new place! It is fuzzy and I still love it anyways for the memories.